Sep 11, 2011
I'm writing with the hope that some of my friends on here and any one else that's dealt with the oppression of depression could give me a hand.
It's not that I've never been depressed, I've had my little bouts with it in the past. The disconnection, the listlessness and disinterest...the whole emotional roller coaster of feeling fine and then feeling dulled. The struggle to just do something rather than nothing.
But this time it's gotten worse. If any of you Potter Fans out there are reading this, you may have a bit more insight to this next statement. It feels as if I've had a Dementor drain all the joy out of me. I feel hollow, empty - even when something that would normally give me positive feelings happens, I feel numb...like I'm not even there.
I have been having difficulty sleeping, waking multiple times during the night, wanting to sleep - feeling tired and yet struggling to find the comfortable feeling so I can fall asleep. Most often of late I pass out after little sleep over a few days, only to be swallowed by oblivion for 5-6 hours. Waking up achy, stiff and not feeling rested, my body has recuperated some, yet mentally I feel less.
I can't get myself to do things I want to do, I just feel like "what's the use..." Even with things I enjoy doing, I just can't stick with it. My enthusiasm is gone. I've no passion, I try to even play a game I really like and I can barely play for 5 min. without just turning off the game and feeling lost. Like I don't know what to do, where to go or if it even matters.
I've never had depression this bad, it's never gotten to the point where I couldn't escape from it. I know this time I think I'm going to need help. I just don't know what to do or who to go to...
So if anyone has dealt with it before...please, let me know how I can escape this nightmare....
Thanks for your help and time....
It's not that I've never been depressed, I've had my little bouts with it in the past. The disconnection, the listlessness and disinterest...the whole emotional roller coaster of feeling fine and then feeling dulled. The struggle to just do something rather than nothing.
But this time it's gotten worse. If any of you Potter Fans out there are reading this, you may have a bit more insight to this next statement. It feels as if I've had a Dementor drain all the joy out of me. I feel hollow, empty - even when something that would normally give me positive feelings happens, I feel numb...like I'm not even there.
I have been having difficulty sleeping, waking multiple times during the night, wanting to sleep - feeling tired and yet struggling to find the comfortable feeling so I can fall asleep. Most often of late I pass out after little sleep over a few days, only to be swallowed by oblivion for 5-6 hours. Waking up achy, stiff and not feeling rested, my body has recuperated some, yet mentally I feel less.
I can't get myself to do things I want to do, I just feel like "what's the use..." Even with things I enjoy doing, I just can't stick with it. My enthusiasm is gone. I've no passion, I try to even play a game I really like and I can barely play for 5 min. without just turning off the game and feeling lost. Like I don't know what to do, where to go or if it even matters.
I've never had depression this bad, it's never gotten to the point where I couldn't escape from it. I know this time I think I'm going to need help. I just don't know what to do or who to go to...
So if anyone has dealt with it before...please, let me know how I can escape this nightmare....
Thanks for your help and time....